Saline and Mock

Well, everything went great today! I was worried for nothing, which does tend to happen.

We started off with a consultation with the doctor.  He is great and I really enjoy him as a person and a doctor.  He went over the procedure again, from the meds to the transfer.  There was something I was surprised to hear though.  I have read and heard that a lot of women who go through IVF are on birth control while they do the meds.  This is the wrong way to go about it.  I mean, each clinic has their own way of doing things, so shouldn’t say it’s wrong, but my doctor pointed out that if you do that, your lining is not growing like it needs to because the birth control won’t let it plump up like it needs to.  Huh.  Wonder why other places have women stay on birth control while they do the meds?

I also learned that he is fearful that because of my PCOS and my past experience with meds for IUI (the first round I was on the lowest recommended starting dose and I produced 9 follicles), he is worried about over-stimulation.  He says there are a few ways to handle that, which will come if and when we need to worry about that, but that might mean I’ll need more monitoring visits.  $300 a pop.  Eep.

I couldn’t get into a nursing class until September 11th.  Kind of stinks because I wanted to start, like, today!  It’s okay though, that will give me time to finish getting rid of this blasted cough!  It still lingers….

The saline showed that I had no cysts on the ovaries and my uterus has nothing strange in it.  He said it looked perfect.  Nice compliment for my baby holder.  Hopefully it will want to hold a baby or two for me.

The Mock also went well.  He had a little trouble with the bend in the catheter to get it to go in nice and smooth, but that is why they do the mock, so that they have the perfect measurements, bends and catheter size for the actual transfer day.  Don’t want any hold ups with your little embryos hanging out in there!

Both the Saline and the Mock gave me some wicked cramps.  I also wasn’t aware of how quickly the saline was going to revisit me.  I peed right after and I thought that should have got rid of the majority of it, but as I was checking out I felt it all come down.  Luckily you could only see it if you were really looking.  And if you were really looking, you’d think I had peed my pants.  Lovely what we go through for babies!

Now I sit here and wait.  I’m going to skip my next period by just continuing onto the next BC pack.  Then after the nursing class, i’ll stop the BC and start the meds.  He said I may bleed a little, but that it would not be a real period and the meds would stop it from coming all the way.  Then after about a week and a half of meds, they will do the egg retrieval.  They said by the time I wake up from the anesthesia, they will know how many eggs were retrieved.  Exciting to know so soon!  By the next morning they will know how many fertilized and by day three they will know how many are looking good.  He said worst case senerio would be that only 2 or 3 are still fertilized and looking alright on day three, and that means they will just go ahead and implant those on day 3.  If we have a lot and they are progressing well, we will do a day 5 transfer.  Let’s hope for a day 5!

Oh, and check out all the free swag I got!  He said it wouldn’t be enough for the cycle, but hey, every little bit helps!  I am very appreciative!

Preliminary Tests Tomorrow!

Tomorrow is our IVF consultation (#2 — our first consultation was over six months ago, so we have to do it again), saline ultrasound and mock transplant.  I decided to read up on both of them to see if there is anything I need to do tonight to prepare.  Looks like everything is pretty simple.  The saline ultrasound is to check to make sure there aren’t polyps, scar tissue, or anything else that could obstruct implantation.  The mock is to make the the right catheter is used for the distance into my uterus for when they transfer the embryos.  Neat!

The only thing that concerns me is that they say the saline is usually done at the beginning of the menstrual cycle.  Days 5-12 typically.  I’m not sure why that’s important, but I hope it’s not actually important because i’m at the end of this cycle (about day 22).  The lady who scheduled the appointment did not ask about where I was in the cycle, and my doctor only said to make sure that I was no longer bleeding when I came in for the appointments.  So I’m hoping the “early” thing is more of a suggestion and not the rule.  I’d hate to be postponed because someone forgot to ask the right questions!  The office I go to is usually really good about this sort of thing though, so I’m not too worried.  I guess it’s normal to be worried about every tiny thing at this point though?  Eh?

I’m also a little worried that the amount of medication I’ve been on recently might factor in somehow.  I’m on nasal spray, mucinex and alternating nights between Tylenol and Nyquil. I’ve only been dosing myself up for about four days though, so I imagine everything should be somewhat normal.  My mucus might be a little thinner down there from the mucinex.  Sexy.  *Wink*  I tried the mucinex thing when we were naturally trying to conceive. You know, thins your mucus to the guys don’t have to struggle to swim up stream so much?  I hear it’s very effective.  Too bad I didn’t know that mucus was the least of our problems.

I’m assuming the doctor will have me wait until after my next cycle anyway.  I’m not sure why I’m kind of freaking out about this right now.  It’ll be about 12 hours before I know exactly what is going to happen and when…. I’m just so antsy!

Getting Worried

I’m getting worried.  I’ve been sick for almost five full weeks.  Starting with a virus that caused a severe sore throat and fever, to a cough, to an ear infection to another cough.  For the past three days I’ve been coughing up all of my insides along with having a runny nose and sneezing.  I am on nasal spray to relieve the congestion in my head, and mucinex to relieve the congestion in my chest, but i’m worried that it’s not going to go away fast enough.

My Saline Ultrasound and Mock Transplant are Wednesday at 9:00am!  That gives me almost exactly 48 hours from right now to feel better.  I doubt he will want to do those tests if I’m hacking and convulsing all over the table.  Ugh!  What do I do?  I’ve taken steamy showers, hot tea with lemon, mucinex, nasal spray and I’ve been relaxing as much as possible.

I just can’t believe that out of all the time in the past nine months I could have been sick, my body chooses now.  Now, when I’m so close to starting IVF!  Ahhhhh! I’m SO Frustrated!!!

If you could find a couple seconds in your day to send out some feel good vibes into the universe for me, I’d appreciate it! 48 hours…. I can do this!!


I am becoming quite antsy thinking about next week.  One week from today!  Actually, less than that because it’s already 9:20pm here and my appointment is at 7:45am next Wednesday.  Ah!  So excited!

The appointment is for my IVF consultation (#2 — because it’s been over six months since we went to our first), Mock transplant, saline ultrasound and blood tests.  I know those things aren’t going to be very exciting (at least, they shouldn’t be!) but it means that this IVF thing is really happening.  It’s finally here… so close!

I hope that they let us start right away, but I’m afraid they may postpone us a little bit because they don’t have a nursing class available until mid-September.  Boo!  I don’t want to wait until mid-September to start!  I’m hoping they will be able to have us come in for a one-on-one with a nurse or a doctor so that we can start sooner.  We’ve already done IUI, so I hope my expertise with stabbing myself with needles can come into play and get us moving along a little faster.

Tick Tock, Clock.  It’s been nine months already since our last IUI failed.  It’s time to go!

Purging All Of The Sick

It’s official.  I’ve been sick for a solid month. A MONTH! Four full weeks of aching and ickiness.  Needless to say, I am exhausted by it all.

I’d like to blame the Chiropractor, sense blaming someone seems like the best idea.  I first got sick after my second adjustment.  Maybe because they see a hundred people a day and they are all laying on the same chair to get adjusted?  Yea, that thin piece of tissue paper will protect us from the cooties!  Maybe because they are touching person after person all day long?  Not going to wash your hands before you touch my face? Mmkay.  Whatever it is, I’m going to blame them and not the possibility that I picked it up out in the world somewhere else.

So, I got sick four weeks ago.  Sore throat and fever.  I was pretty sure it was strep.  I haven’t had strep since I was a child, but I felt like my throat was on fire and swollen to the point of possibly exploding.  Strep test was negative.  Ugh.  A week later it was time to go on vacation.  A beautiful vacation to an exotic land.  It required 12 hours of flying to get there.  Have you ever had a sore throat, fever, cough and ear pain while on a plane?  It is the most miserable time in your life.  I felt like crying the entire time.  So when my mother in law popped up happily in the seat in front of me and asked why I wasn’t excited….. lets just say that I had very nasty thoughts running through my head, and I love my mother in law.  Imagine if I didn’t!

The vacation went by fine.  Lots of early bedtimes and a couple late sleep-ins, but I made the most of it and didn’t let this super bug drag me down.  I took my antibiotics (that didn’t do a thing to help) and dosed up on some Nyquil the majority of the nights (5 out of 9).  I made it and had a great time!  Then it was time to fly back.  12 more hours…. three more planes.  By now my sister in law had the monster bug.  I took some Nyquil for the return flights and slept through 7 hours, which was a good idea considering my sister in law was keeping the rest of the plane up with her coughing.  I guess that had been my job on the trip there.

After we landed I realized that I couldn’t really hear very well out of my right ear.  Awesome.  Ear infection!  I’ve had 6-7 tubes between my two ears, so I knew exactly what was going on.  I went in last Monday, was given steroids.  Steroids are apparently supposed to help absorb the water into your bloodstream?  Eh, didn’t work.  Got a tube put in yesterday.

I still can’t hear and now I had a sore throat again due to the drainage/swelling in my ear.  When will it end?!  Is my body just purging all of the sick before IVF?  I’d like to think that this is the case.  If so, thanks body!  I appreciate you putting me through four weeks of torture so that my body will be PERFECT for IVF!  …..right?

Update on Sexual Education, Please!

Over the past three years, I’ve realized that I was never prepared for the possibility of having reproductive problems.  In school I was taught that if you have sex without protection, you WILL get pregnant and you WILL get an STD.  I get the scare tactics, it’s important to scare teenagers out of sex.  Of course, TV shows like 16 and Pregnant glorify teenage pregnancy so much, that I’m sure teenagers are now taking detailed notes on how to get pregnant so they can get on TV.  Scare tactics aside, there needs to be more information on what to do if your body is not functioning correctly.

I had a period when I was 13 years old.  It was my first one, seemed typical (from what I remember, it was 15 years ago) and afterwards, I spent a lot of time awaiting the next.  Not because I wanted another, but because I didn’t want to be caught off guard with an accident.  I’d heard the horror stories about that.  Well, a month went by with nothing.  A year went by with nothing… and before I knew it, I was 16 and finally getting my second period.  Yes, that’s right, 16 years old.  Old enough to drive.  I continued to have periods, but only every 4-5 months.

Did anything seem strange to me about this?  Sure! Of course!  My friends went on and on about them every month.  They envied me and my 2-3 times a year periods.  I guess I was pretty excited about it too.  Who actually thinks about the need to have one of those?  They are a pain in the uterus!  Shouldn’t I have had the notion to get checked out?  I guess I should have, but I was never taught to think about that.  Every time I told someone, I’d get a “Hey! That must be nice!”  So I learned to think of my missing periods as something that was considered a fantastic blessing.  Little did I know!

Sexual Education focuses on three things.  Anatomy, Sex and STD’s.  Did I know where parts were located? Yes.  Did I know how sex works? Eh… I had a pretty good idea.  Did I know that STD’s were out there, lurking in every penis that passed by?  Oh yes.  But did I know that not having a standard period every month was a sign of something wrong?  No.  No I didn’t.

Just from starting this blog, I’ve learned that there are more girls out in the world with infertility problems then I would have ever imagined.  We are everywhere, and we are just now learning that things we’ve lived with our whole lives are wrong.  Missing periods, cramps that literally feel like they are killing you, excess hair growth in places where hair doesn’t belong on a lady, no sex drive…  These are very big things.  Huge things, and yet, most of us didn’t even think to get these things checked out.  If you are anything like me, you shrugged your shoulders, picked up your tweezers and went to work to hide your embarrassing hair growth.  Or you bragged a little about missing periods, or maybe even talked about how you had to miss three days of work because your period was so bad you were hunched over a toilet.

Why don’t they educate on these things?  I don’t think it would add to the curriculum too much.  “Ladies, if you do not have regular periods, or vomit every month when you have a period, you could have a hormone imbalance or Endometriosis!  Go chat with your gynecologist!”  How long would that take to say?  Only took me a couple seconds to type!  Although I am only using two examples, there are many other symptoms that could point to problems, so it may take a day or two on the subject to fully cover it in a classroom situation.

Scare tactics are fine and necessary, but our health is more important than that.  If I had known when I was 16 what I know now, I might be pregnant, or at least have most of my symptoms under control.  My friend who had to take 3 days off of school every month because she was throwing up every time she had a period, might have been able to have her Endometriosis diagnosed 12 years sooner than she did.  Let’s get some EDUCATION into Sexual education.  Let’s try and make it about a little more than where the penis goes. Let’s make it about health in all aspects.  Let’s get the newest generation of women educated on their bodies, so that if they do have problems they don’t have to wait until they are 26 and ready to have children before they learn the bad news.

You can call me naive and scream that I should have known, but I am not the only one.  I am one of many, and as a sex, we should be aware that we have not been told everything we need to know.  We’ve all been to gynecologists for years and years and still came away with no answers time after time.  We need to be taught to ask the right questions so that we can get started on becoming healthier and happier!

Ugly Babies?

Okay, I’m not sure if I’m the only one on the planet that has never seen an ugly baby, but talking to my friends would have you believe that I am.  Maybe I haven’t been looking hard enough?  I think there is a better answer though… I think I’ve never seen an ugly baby because my inability to have one makes me love every single baby face I can lay my eyes on.  

Now, I’ve seen some goofy looking toddlers and kids, but that makes sense because some adults are goofy looking and they had to come from somewhere, but babies?  No way!  They are all so cute and little and adorable with their cooing and drooling and general excitement for the game peek-a-boo.  How can you not think something is adorable when it laughs hysterically because you sneeze?  Or even if you don’t find any of that cute or adorable, how can you say that a baby is ugly?  Just in general, doesn’t it make you feel a little ashamed?

I was having this conversation with a friend a few months ago and she got a little over-crazy and grabbed her phone shouting “Oh, I’ve got a super ugly baby for you! Wow! You just won’t believe it!”  It made me feel weird that she was so excited to call a baby ugly.  I want to say that she even claimed that it had a face that only a mother could love.  So, she pulls out her phone and shows me “the ugliest baby [she’s] ever seen!”  And you know what?  That baby was beautiful!  She had beautiful red hair, big blue eyes and a huge smile.  I could not figure it out.  That’s when I came up with the theory that it must be because I can’t have one.  

So, if anyone out there has an ugly baby they don’t want, ship it over to me and I will think it is amazing and beautiful!  K? Thanks!