Things And Such

Today I am 3dp3dt (I said I wasn’t going to do that, but I think I might.  Easiest way to share the time frame with everyone).  Today I’ve been pretty tired, noticed that my heartbeat seems harder or maybe fast or something?  I can feel it pulsing through my body when I’m laying down to rest, and walking upstairs leaves me a little winded.  The pressure in my abdomen is also increasing, and I know it’s not because of “going” problems this time.  (Thank you prune juice!)

Are these symptoms?  Nah, way too early for that.  I’m sure it’s just the progesterone talking to me.  I seem to remember feeling this exact way after every IUI, which leaves me worried because I miscarried after one and had my period after two others.  I know the progesterone has continued to keep my breasts sore after injections ended, so all of this other stuff seems like it would be part of the whole shebang.  I know everyone says they wish they could just know what’s happening in there, and that it gets redundant after a while, but I really, really, really wish I could know.   I feel almost like I do before my period starts, except more pressure and less cramping (although there is cramping).  I am bloated like a beast though, so that could definitely explain the pressure.  Maybe in the future they could transfer embryos and then just put you to sleep for two weeks?  That seems like it would work best for mother and embryos.  🙂  Ah, I guess I’ll just wait some more… tick tock, clock! 8 more days…

Successful Growth!

I just got a call from the embryologist.  She said that both of our other embryos were perfect and able to be frozen today.  Wow…. I cannot tell you how excited I am about that.  I actually started crying once I hung up the phone.  That’s not really a surprise though, I’ve been crying over everything today.  Thanks, Progesterone!  Ah, so happy and excited to hear that news today.  Whether we end up having to use them soon, or later, I’m glad to know that they are there, waiting for us to try and grow them in my belly and give them a fantastic home (hopefully to join their siblings in me right now ;)).

 

Let’s Chat About Progesterone…

So, I guess I am 1dp3dt?  Is that how people do that?  I’m going with it.  I don’t plan on doing that countdown thing everyday though.  I think it would make me more nervous for the up and coming results day.  Anyway…

(A little warning — this entry may contain too much information, but I feel it’s something others may be experiencing, so I’d like to put my information out there so maybe I can help others.)

The progesterone is out to kill me… I’m sure of it.  Along with oily skin, oily hair, bloating and moodiness… I have been super constipated.  Yesterday was day four and I was so miserable I could hardly stand it.  I was told during my transfer that along with Colace (which I had started Saturday morning — took 100mg twice daily) that I should drink a cup of prune juice, warmed in the microwave for 30 seconds.  I don’t mind prunes, so I said “WHATEVER IT TAKES!!”  I tried it, and it wasn’t bad.  I liked it warmed up.  I took my colace, I ate my pineapple (which should also help constipation, along with implantation) and still felt terrible.  Now, this is where it gets a little TMI.  I knew I had to go or I was going to just feel sicker and sicker.  My body health right now is so important that I knew I had to get something out.  Anything!  So I struggled a bit, and strained.  I was so worried about straining on the day of the transfer that I went Google crazy.  Luckily it says that shouldn’t affect anything, especially so early because nothing is attached, they are just sort of floating around in there, hopefully growing and developing before they latch on around day 3-5 after transfer.  Whew… good!  I was seriously freaking out.  It was necessary though.  I finally had some success last night before bed and I almost couldn’t get to sleep I was THAT excited.

So, why share all of this?  Because it’s important for others to know that this is a problem and you need to start early to take care of it.  Before you start progesterone, start drinking more water.  I know everyone says that, but it’s serious.  Also, maybe introduce prunes or prune juice into your diet earlier.  There are lists of foods that are high in fiber and can help prevent things like this online… go find them and eat some of them.  The hard part is making sure they are compatible with trying to get pregnant.  We all know pineapple can assist in implantation, but too much can hurt implantation.  So it’s a little tricky.

As for the oily skin and hair, the bloating and the moodiness.  I can live with that.  I can dance around with that all day, but I cannot NOT go.  I plan to stay on top of this problem.  Right now i’m eating Kale chips.  Kale is high in fiber — fiber yay!

I hope everyone out there is feeling healthy and happy and not suffering quite so much as me.  🙂

Grow Little Ones!

Well, we had our embryo transfer about an hour ago.  Now I’m laying on the couch, laptop in lap with the ID channel on.  I’ll be watching Doctor Who later with the husband, so no worries about me watching murdery type things all day.  For now, my loving husband is off to the grocery store to pick some stuff up for the next few days while I’m couch bound.

So, before I talk about the transfer, first I have an insane story to tell.  They were doing another retrieval this morning, and the after-retrieval area is only separated a curtain from the pre-transfer area.  So the husband and I are sitting there waiting for the doctor and the retrieval couple are sitting on the other side of the curtain and all the sudden I hear “come on girl, come on.  Get the oxygen tank!  Come on, stay awake!”  The girl had “crashed” due to the pain meds given after the anesthesia.  Heartbeat gone and everything.  That was one of the scariest things I’ve ever experienced.  Luckily it was only for a few seconds (which felt like hours to ME and I wasn’t her husband sitting there.. I can’t imagine how he felt).  Wow.. just insanely scary.  So glad that she was okay and alert soon after.  The anesthesiologist said that she had a “vagal reaction.”  No clue what that means, but I plan to Google later.  I just hope everyone has an anesthesiologist as quick and as good to react as my clinic has.

So, our transfer (not to take away from the big story, which I think is the story of the girl above) was amazing!  We got to the clinic and had to wait a little while.  We were both so jumpy and excited that it felt like it to forever to go to the back.  Finally they called us back and we both got ready.  Husband went full scrubs, I went all open back robe, while both of us dawned booties, cap and surgical mask.  We looked super cute.  Then the embryologist came out to talk to us about the embryos.  We had two very strong, 8 celled embryos to transfer. They want them to be 8 called by this point, so they were right on track!  We also have an 8 cell and a 6 cell in the lab still growing.  If they turn into blasts by day five, we can freeze them both.  This information was way above our expectations.  We were elated! Once she handed us the picture of the little ones, my husband looks at it and says “you know, it’s amazing how much they look like us.”  He got a good laugh out of me on that one. 🙂

So they got transferred without any hiccups and now I am just relaxing and enjoying the feeling of being excited and hopeful.  My pregnancy test is schedule for 10-11-12, which my husband and I both think is super awesome. 🙂  Grow little ones!  We want to meet you and love you and take care of you forever!!

Less Than 24 Hours Until Transfer!

Getting nervous/excited/stressed for tomorrow!  I can’t wait to see how many are viable and get a picture!

I plan on eating some pineapple for the next few days.  Although it hasn’t been scientifically proven (from what I can find), I hear that it can help with implantation.  I’m willing to do whatever it takes!  I also plan on doing bed rest for at least three days.  Day one will be actual bed rest, involving only getting up to pee and eat.  Monday and Tuesday will be laying on the couch only getting up to pee, eat and let the dogs outside (silly dogs!).  Relaxation is key to this for me.  I wish I could say that once they are in there i’ll be less stressed, but come on, that’s not realistic. 😉  It will be neat to chat with them a little though. 😀

Anybody out there have any after transfer tips for me?  What did you eat and do to help and keep busy?

Transfer Scheduled – 3 Day

Well, heard from the Embryologist today.  Out of the 8 collected, 5 were mature and 4 ended up fertilizing.  She had already scheduled the transfer when she called me.  Sunday at 9:00am.  She said depending on how they look by Sunday, they may choose to transfer three, which makes me wonder what she knows… why would she assume all of them would be in bad shape by Sunday?  Do they not look healthy?  Can you even tell by this point?  Ugh… again with the stress…

I am currently standing in my kitchen typing this because I was told to “stand up and move around for a little bit” after inserting the suppository.  Feels squishy.  I hope they do the trick and let however many the transfer really stick in there for the long haul.  I know I should start getting excited, but I don’t think I’ll be able to until I go in on Sunday and they let me know the condition of the embryos.  How do people deal with this stress multiple times?

Oh, and why does everyone keep saying “that’s great for your age!”  I’m 28, not 104!

48 hours until transfer….

Egg Retrieval, Itching, and A Big Thanks!

Today has been a big day for me.  I wanted to start by thanking everyone who has taken the time to read my blog and show your love and compassion for me and my husbands  journey.  I know we are all struggling with the same thing, so the fact that you’ve all taken time out of your days and lives to read about our struggle really means the world to me.  This blog has helped keep me sane(ish) over the past 3.5 months and it’s all because of all of you all!  Big thanks to everyone!  I hope to be able to keep showing you how much I appreciate you all by being supportive and helpful whenever you need me!  Much love for you all!

Today I also remembered why I hate hydrocodone.  It makes me itch.  All over.  All the time…. constantly… without stopping.  I’ve been trying to sleep ever since I got home.  I’m exhausted, but for some reason I can’t seem to fall all the way asleep.  I feel like I’m awake, but an hour seems to pass by like nothing.  Maybe I’m falling asleep a little?  Why doesn’t it feel like it?  Oh well, at least I get to lay around and rest.  I need it! *scratch scratch scratch*

So, the big part of my day was my egg retrieval.  The anesthesiologist today was amazing.  He was so nice and funny and helpful.  He put music on for me while we waited on the doctor and had a long discussion with me about ice cream, yogurt and smoothies.  He kept me very calm before a very big procedure, and I will be forever grateful.   So once the doctor came in (8:00 on the nose) the anesthesiologist immediately put in the meds to make me fall asleep.  Good thing I had a couple seconds (literally) before I actually fell asleep because no one told me not to lay on my gown, and apparently this was a big problem.  I had just enough time to yank the gown out from under me and get back into my butt-hanging-off-the-table position before I was out.  I awoke, kind of, about twenty minutes later.  Apparently we were having some conversations about the number of eggs retrieved and… other things? I guess?  So the total collected was 8!  I know it’s not a lot, and the odds are still not really in our favor… BUT… it’s one more than I had total on Tuesday… and the fact that they got them all out (plus the extra) was fantastic.  Now I am completely stressed out about finding out how many fertilized tomorrow.  I mean…. this is the most stressed out I’ve been so far.  I’m hoping to just sleep most of the time until the phone call tomorrow.

Will any fertilize?  If so, will it be a three-day or a five-day transfer?  Ah!  The waiting game is never ending! 🙂  I’m glad this part is over and that 8 were retrieved though! Yippy!

Now it’s time to get more rest and try to relax.  Nothing I can do from here.  It’s all up to the lab techs, eggs and spermies….. go go go guys!!!