Well, everyone, I’m not sure why it’s taken me this long to post about this, I could probably come up with a few good excuses, and a couple bad ones, but instead I’ll just say that it took me too long and I apologize. I am pregnant.
That’s right! For anyone who’s been with me since the beginning of this blog, you know that we struggled for three years to conceive our daughter. We tried naturally, we tried Clomid, then we went to a Reproductive Endocrinologist and finally got a diagnosis of PCOS for me, and some wonky (not the medical term) sperm from my husband. After that we tried four medicated rounds of IUI, with only three being viable for the actual insemination part, and after a chemical pregnancy with the first IUI try, and two failed IUI’s after that, we took nine months off, regrouped physically and mentally, and then went back for IVF. FINALLY, we had success! Little E was conceived, carried, and born in June of 2013. Phew… long ride… but we had made it. Now, with a little lady on my hands, I wondered at the prospect of more. Was I willing to go through fertility treatments again? I mean, after all, my husband and I were still considered infertile so it would take more medication, more money, more time, to conceive again, and I just wasn’t ready. My heart wasn’t in it. I was content, happy, finding my new balance in life with E. *heartfelt sigh* But then…..
So, remember this post I wrote on July 13th of last year? It was all about how I wasn’t sure a second kid was for me. Well, three days later I took a pregnancy test and found out I was pregnant. Go figure! To say I was shocked is putting it very, very mildly. In fact, it was until recently that I think I actually kind of accepted what was happening, and I’m already 31 weeks along. I am now elated, but at first I was scared and upset. I didn’t know if this was something I wanted, or could even handle. I’m still not sure I can handle it, but I know it’s something I want now. HE is something I want.
That’s right, I have a little man on the way!
I’m hoping to post one day about how this is a wonderful thing for people who have suffered through infertility and can now have hope of a natural second, but I feel like I would need more than two minutes, and sadly, that’s all the time I have left this morning.
Until next time, lovelies!
-E