Dear Ovaries,

Hey, it’s me, your human.  I know you got a bum deal in this whole life, having PCOS and all (I’m super sorry about that — genetics are a bitch), but could we talk about this painful exploding feeling we’ve been experiencing lately?

It’s not that I don’t like the feeling of you being bruised and broken after I have sex with my husband, it’s just that I don’t.  It is horrible.  I didn’t even know that cysts could rupture during sex.  Why is that a thing?  We weren’t performing an acrobatic sexual act either. Missionary should not cause exploding ovaries, it’s just not right.

So, when I go to the OB on Wednesday for my ultrasound, let’s not have a million cysts on each ovary.  I mean, I suspect that is not the outcome I’ll have, since I’ve been having ovarian pain for the past few months, but come on, after all we’ve been through!  Is this payback for the Clomid, the IUI’s, and the IVF?  I get it, those things sucked, and I put you through absolute torment trying to make a cute little baby for me to snuggle, but we did it! We made a baby!  She’s amazing and awesome, but she’s very hard to take care of when I want to throw up from ovary pain.  So, let’s make a deal.  You had your fun getting back at me with a rupture during sex.  We are even now.  K?  Love you!  Mean it!

Yours always (or until my super early hysterectomy, which is almost a 100% genetic guarantee),
-Me

7 Weeks 2 Days – Scan 2

Oopsy, I’ve been a little ahead of myself so far.  Turns out that even though you can calculate your due date from your retrieval or your 3 days transfer, it turns out that may not be the actual due date.  Who knew?!  Anyway, I thought I was 7 weeks 6 days today, but I guess squirrel implanted a little later because he/she is at 7 weeks 2 days.  Completely normal, says the RE.  I will trust her.  Now I’m off to the OB as a normal pregnant lady….weird!

One thing I wasn’t expecting today was that they told me I could stop my progesterone suppositories today.  She said to go ahead and finish what I have (which would be enough to make it through Saturday) but that I could technically stop today.  Whaaaaat?  I thought I was supposed to be on these things until 10 weeks.  Now I’m hearing that I can stop before I’m even 8 weeks?  Hmmm… I’m thinking I may cheat the system.  Instead of stopping today, and instead of taking all three doses each day until Saturday, I may just take two doses per day and drag it out until I am officially 8 weeks.

When did everyone else stop their progesterone?  My friend who did IVF last year said that stopping the progesterone would be stressful and she is absolutely right.  I feel like that’s my baby growing safety net.  Eeeep!!

I am going to call the OB today and see what my next step is…. pretty exciting!  I have no idea what to expect from here on out.  New territory!!

P.S. Baby heartbeat = amazing.  I can’t wait to hear it!