Yesterday I could really feel righty saying “hey,” now it’s lefty screaming “HEY!” Lefty was doing a tad better than righty on Wednesday. I’m hoping they are both kicking in to full gear. It’s just a little over 12 hours before we know the verdict and I’m freaking out. It’s probably good that my hubby decided to go play cards with the guys tonight. Not sure I’d be very good company. The conversation would probably be all about my ovaries and what they are doing. “Do you think there are more follicles?” “Do you think they are bigger” “Do you think we’ll have enough to continue??” “AHHH!!”
Sounds like fun, right? RUN, HUSBAND, RUUUUN!! He loves me though, and he has been AMAZING the past few days (and all the years before the past few days) while I’ve been stressed out and crying. Lots of crying. Sometimes over important things, sometimes because of a TV show… the hormones control the tear ducts. He is much more in control of things than I am. He has the ability to say “let’s wait and see how things and going, and then we will start making decisions about our next options.” I’m more like, “let’s figure every single step out right this second!” He’s right though. It’s better to wait until we HAVE to make another decision. No reason to think the worst before the worst is verified. He is my rock, my best friend and the love of my life. I know that whatever comes, we will make it through it together, and that’s all that really matters.
No matter what you go through with infertility, always remember who you are going through it with and how much you love that person. They are the most important thing in your life, not your infertility.